bowling

bowling suxs
sian
the training suxs
damn sian
despising trainings nw
dun tok to me
sians.
i sux
sian
sian sian
conclusion
= SIAN.
bb

u showed hw much u really " cared"
thanks

i swear

fricken hell
flu
&
sorethroat
perfect combination to seriously piss u off
when ur nones and eyes just stop secreting tears and mucus.
when ur body aches so much that u wanna wake but u cant.
whatever whenver u do sth, when it starts flowing, u can nv stop it, and it becoms such a turnoff that u dowanna do that thing anymore.
fkkkkk.

pon bowling again
im so screwed
bah
leave me alone

zzz

frickin flu
fever
cum sorethroat
fk running nose
bloody mucus nv seems to be ending
can rant on and on and on
but
in conclusiion
im dying
bah
no 1 at home
all out shopping
stun.ned

u dun seem to care
so why shld i?
time 2 4give and 4get.
shall enjoy my own company
in a house
myself.

sick

sian
fever
sorethroat
flu
wth
wth can
wthh la
spoiler
pui~
maple like crazy today
lalala.
off to work.

oh yes
my hair got screwed
nv going back there
ever
again.
period

wa stun

competi was
bad
bad
bad
bad
bad
nv to bowl with injured fingers ever again.

=(

went watch da vinci!
omg
rox
2.5 hr show
damn power
powerpack
5 star rating
starting part abit disgusting thou,
but the rest was like woot!
ahhaha for those who believe in christianity
this movie is a jack for your belief.
=P

falling sick
flu,
sorethroat.
oh well.
my net connection is falling sick too
msn keeps getting dc , maple dc.

so zzz
ps : i will nv eat fire noodles again.

handiicapped.

=(
fingers damn pain..
whywhywhywhywhy
sprain my left hand when i sleeping juz nw..
wa lao
diarreoa
3 times le..
in 2 hrs.
got ulcer !!!
wth.
and parts which are not visible are hurting
i need an angel.

woot

exhausted.
mentally
physically
cant take this no more.
yournottheone.

lets go back to yesterday.
omg.
went to sch early.
tot can bowl.
but bowling alley occupied,
anyway bowl during break time.
spin was there, strength.
but i cant spare.
hand hurts a lil aft tat, but i still risked playing it the next day.

anyway.
still yesterday
pon bowling
again
sry .
thousand apologies .
in the past i would nv pon cca..
unless for something really impt.
decided to go actually
halfway there.
the siannesss took over.
and i gave in.
period
maybe its just nw the same passion anymore.
anyway
did itab.
stupid slides
wa lao the concept fan still got prob la.
but they dun care,
nvm
did until damn late.
went crazy in Sas.
took pics
videos
ok la we all lost it
den went tiong bahru eat kfc
haha
stun
longest time i ordered kfc
haahs
terrance spilled frances all over his pants sia!

back to today.
woke up early
go sch
wa lao
sleep on mrt there
standing
sleeping
sleep on mrt back also can
bloody tired.
went bowl during break.
hahas
power
splendid
it all came back
abit rusty thou,
cant spare a few.
but close la
i can feel the thing
running thru my veins
i had almost total control
i can predict my balls
i can hear the "BHAM" Sound
i enjoyed it
5 games in 40 mins
man
pwnage.
only im in the alley
hahahas.
power rite.
dint even feel my hand was pain..
until aft sch
sigh
fingers damn pain
cant bowl tmr
hope everything will be allright by fri.
wish me luck
pwned

went for my first driving practical
hahahahahah
knn
the car died 5 times
stupid clutch
always release too fast
but damn fun can
driving car is damn fun
hahahahaaa
damn fun
omg
1 way to describe it.
damN FUNNNN
but quite stress
must look at 3 mirrors den cannot bang ppl must switch gears etc
hahahhaaa
cant wait for my next lesson man!
reach home damn shag.
mama dun let me drive her car in our own carpark.
so mean la.
bleah.

totally exhausted.
reach home
fell on bed
sleep
nv bath lor
hahahs
change den slp
=D
i love driving.

mob test

omg sia
pon itab
mug 4 hrs before mob test.
hahahas
fk.
mob test
knn
damn cb
esp my question paper
omg
every around me have the same paper,
except ME. i have a diff paper
swee rite.
kanna stun la.
wa lao
im the lucky 1
wtf lor.
die .
hahas

walking halfway to bowling ,
den sian
decided to go home
shall go for cca tmr instead.

fri's coming
and im nt prepared at all.
how.how?
god knows
say goodbye to breaks again from now on

no 1 will understand.
i will survive
cheerios.

会有那么一天

omg.
会有那么一天
Hui You Na Me Yi Tian
this song
comparable to jay chous gui ji
damn bloody sad.
i like.
ahas..
listen le.
tears came out
uncontrollably.
maybe due to other factors as well.
images just flashed..
hahas..
need to slp le
new day tmr.
=D

bad day.

is it just me?
everything aint the same anymore.
getting more sianed sianed sianed at bowling.
wheres all my enthuness.
cant blame me.
when wanna train besides normal training days, only me myself and I would be training.
where were the times when there was a partner
to share the joy
to share the pain.
to motivate each other.
those were the days.
all blame is to me actually.
i made the choice
after all.
only depends on my determination now.
dunno how long i can hold on to the promise to bowl when we are in our working lives .
esp now since we are on diff paths.
how long can i keep going
how long can i keep smiling
how long?

those days aint coming back
i keep telling to myself.
but a part of me just want to return
even if its futile
just theres a hope.
a hope.
a hope that things turn out better.
e ans will be revealed on friday.
may the glimmer come true.






















shesnottheoneforu.

fHoooooooooow!!!!!!!!!

FhoooooOOOOOOOOOOOooowwwwwwwwwwwww!!!
haha
went mad.

heres a song peeps


Oh yeh, I'll tell you something
I think you'll understand
When I'll say that something
I wanna hold your hand
I wanna hold your hand
I wanna hold your hand


Oh please, say to me
You'll let me be your man
And please, say to me
You'll let me hold your hand
You'll let me hold your hand
I wanna hold your hand

And when I touch you I feel happy inside
It's such a feeling that my love
I can't hide, I can't hide, I can't hide

Yeh, you've got that something
I think you'll understand
When I'll say that something
I wanna hold your hand
I wanna hold your hand
I wanna hold your hand


i need new songs! anyone got new nice songs? intro me pls . tyty =PpP

woke up

shall nt be depressed anymr
shall nt be bothered abt things going on.
shall nt be endulged in past memories.
shall be focused.
shall be a mugger
shall be me.

solo.

=(

sian
sick
sian
sick
sian.

fk life

CONGRATS VAL

if u happen to c this.

CONGRATS VAL.
JIAYOU TJC! Hope u guys, sry, gals win the finals=D


=P

haha.

sianed

woo.
wong yi quan won the singles for a division
avg 206
expected.
hahas
zai kia spinner

sometimes i wondered if iv stayed, would things be diff.
its too late now anyway.

sian
feel like quitting bowling
damn sian
train so hard also so lousy
stupid fingers so pain, nw cant play at all.
hais.
who can save me? who????

zzz

affirmed.
hopeless.
dun care le.


gonna gif myself 1 day for it to recover.
then i start my daily break training
until i get back my damn avg.
fingers hang in there abit.
no matter how swollen u are.
how pain u become
the willpowerr willl overcome it.

i need to start studying.

commentless

hmmm
what do u get when u slack and not train den chiong training?
blistered and blue black fingers
cheers.
competi next week.
and i cant bowl nw for god knows hw many days.
woot.
damn sian.
scores sux
feel like quitting
oh well.

damn heng dint join the singapore international open
frickin advertisements were everywhere.
even my coachs and my coach son ( national team de ) also joining
crazy.
heard bowlers around the world also joining
siao
i dun stand a frickin chance with my current form.
its the main bowling event for sg.
man the atmospheres gonna be great.
but, its only for the pros man =D

buy drink machine also got problem
zzz
put in $1.20 for 100 plus
come out $0.70 mineral water.
wth.

4got to bring my pencil box.
again
and worse
dint bring my pacc tutorial.
wasted dunno god knows hw many hours doing it.
den 4got to bring
splendid.

fhoooooooooo~
did sth crazy on e way to e mrt.
hahas
ps for the gal
anyway.
felt much better doing it.
maybe its a way to release myself.
a way that no 1 will suspect.
a way that ppl think im juz mad for that instance
=D

gonna keep myself damn busy with driving


yesyes davinci code pls ppl!
*hints tans gang * oei oei *
val u better nt ps again.

hahas.
its a happy day.
back to what im doing b4 i blog.
*flees*
*treasure ur grandparents peeps*
ur gonna miss them when they gone
or sth like that.
seriously.


I open my eyes
I try to see but I’m blinded by the white light
I can’t remember how
I can’t remember why
I’m lying here tonight
And I can’t stand the pain
And I can’t make it go away
No I can’t stand the pain
How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
Everybody’s screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I’m slipping off the edge
I’m hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again
So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can’t explain what happened
And I can’t erase the things that I’ve done
No I can’t
How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this lifeI just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

*bring me back to life*
*save me from the nothing iv became.

lalala

Sometimes i sit at home and wonder how it be if life remains the same,

i learned a while ago that kind of thing it never happens for me,

and so i go around and just pretend life is not for me

i play the circus clown around my friends make them laugh and they won't see

that you never let them see you sweat dont want them to think the pain runs deep,

Lord know its killing me

So i put on my mask
put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me
everything is ok
i'm laughing cuz no one
knows the joke is on me
cuz i'm dying inside with my pride and a smile on my Face
...on my face
singing, la la la, la la, lalala, la la, la la, la la, la la, la la, la la laLaaaa

im happy =)

=)=)=)

EC

hahahs.
just linked dennis
bored.
fking bored
zzz
zzzz
zzzzz


EC now .
lalalala
lalallalllalallaaaaaa
weeeeeeeooooaaaahhhheeeeeeooooccco
going crazZYyYYyYyyYYY
krazyyyyyyy

a crying heart lies behind the merriest smiles

cheerios =D

sianed

hahas.
log in blog. den sian to blog.
sianed.
tata

heh

decided.
i wont go tmr.
jiayou ba sr.!
im behind you.
aft all. im not one of them anymore.
yup..
sigh
but yup.

bet that sajc spinner would win the competi.
hahas.

im on my own =).

whoo

watched poseidon sia!
power thriller
a must watch.
seriously
if u think its like titanic.
hell no.
thats a big misconception.
titanic focus on the love,
man this focus is on the action
every scene has its scare.
every
the whole movie since the ship started to sink
its all heart threatening
a must watch!
woot!
damn la the gay survived.
hahaa.

ate pepper beef steak for lunch.
shld have eaten nydc.
*whines*

saw yt's bf. hahaha
hahahhahaa.


long 14 bus ride home. =)
wee.
heh

oh ya.
on e bus, saw the advertisement for the 37th Singapore international open , even at orchard roads. the roadlamps have all the ads on that.
sad huh.. feel like juz ponning 8 days of sch and join. be in the atmosphere,
feel the passion. since i cant feel it for the nationals. but iv already or my dad has already made the decision not to go
so yea..
bah.


getting used to it.
isolate.
solo.

bowling com tmr.
decision decision.
be strong.

holiday

woo.
lvl up!
lv 68.
hahahas.
been long since i played my char.
2 more lvls to 70,
third job.
=D=D

been thinking whether to go on mon.
maybe i shall attend half of sch
den go.
hahahas.
see how.

yesyes. need to go simlim one day to buy my 1 gig mmc card.
1 gig man.
i can still survive in long mrt rides without my ipod .
hahahas.

played with cow maple.
the time taken for her to lv 1 - lv 8
i only go from lv 10 - 11.
sad la.
lolx

juz realised i 4got most of the econs iv learned.
seriously
*ahhh*
need to recap
recap!!!

trust is one u shld nv misplace.

sian.
mon got bowling training
normally i would look forward to go.
but the lj coach.
sigh.
dun worry.
i will still attend.
=D

lalala.

omg. =(

wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooot

went out with the sr bros. wooo.
long time , long time since iv seen them man.
watch mi3! lol.
yes yes.
i think i watch that show a zillion times.
anyway.
yes.
as usual.
i was late.
15 mins only la.
ahaha
queue damn long.
worse was.
when i was going up the escalator
2 frickin gays were behind me.
holding hands.
hugging
kissing
the kissing sound was so damn obvious
make my hair everywhere stand la.
totally disgusted.
ZZZZZZ
walked to fareast for no reason, den went to chill at coffeebean.
Sunrise suxs.
its the name of e drink.
they shld invent a new flavour and put it as sunset =D

les and gays.
i mean
its not that i detest their personality or wad so ever.
its just natural turnoff
i dunno why.
it makes me feel uneasy.
sry if i cant hide my actions or feelings.
im trying my best to.
best is not let me know or see
that way. i wont react

in the cinema
one cbkia keep kicking my chair from behind
not purposely la, but his balls damn itchy keep switching legs den knock the back of my chair.
he exceeded my tolerance level, i gave him alot of chances le, finally cant tahan, turn back, excuse me 1st time, he nv hear cos he busy toking,
EXCUSE me damn loud den he heard, can u stop frickin kick the chair.
oh , sry . hahaa he kanna stun.
moron sia.

then went cafecartel for dinner
their st louis pork ribs
zai zai zai

anyway.
got updated a lot of info.
on whats been happening in sr..
lots of familar names appeared.
once that has been in my life.
once that i used to see everyday..
but nt now.

been missing out so much
so much.
so much . . .

anyway..
gave my mum the glow in the dark roses juz now, i woke up in e middle of the night to do it ok,
she got a shock.
but i can see shes happy. and suprised.
=)
cheers.
happys mums day in advance =)

been foolish to think there would be someone for me to confide in.
heh.
i wan buy shoe.

nationals on mon man!
dunno whether to pon sch go support sr!
and see my frens from other jcs
woo.
but i must pon sch sia
sian.
i would be the contestant, if i stayed.
not the spectator..
hahas.

be strong!
=D
cheerios

hmm

past memories flows back.
made me realize how much i miss and detest my present life.
however reality is such that i can do nothing about it.
because for now, i stand alone,as one,isolated.
life would never be the same again.
it would never be the same..
beautiful things dun last long
just like fireworks,
because no matter how great beauty sth possess,
one would eventually get sick of it,
or, it would just slip away.
reflected on alot of things.
tears flowed, but they will nv be flowed again.
the soft heart has hardened.
nth can break it now,
or neither can one enter.
the door is sealed.
and will never be opened again.
never.

no 1 can or will ever understand me
or wat lies behind my happiest smiles.

cheerios

blistered

whoo~
been spending lots of $ for bowling.
zzz
tried out the new method.
its super effective.
back to back 130 and below 120 scores.
been missing this score for quite a while.*insert sarcasm*
seriously pondering shld i really change,
i must admit that coach has more experience in bowling than me and
he would make a most likely more right decision then i would,
and his advice would mean good to me.
ponders ponders ponders.

oh well. anyway, said gdbye to my early team sg hopes.
dad disagreed of 9 days ponning of sch for the bowling competition
so=X
cant join.
save me the trouble of deciding whether to join or not.
come to think of it nw, i wanna join.
but oh well.

fingers
blistered.
sobs
=( =( =(
cant bowl le, must let it recover.
whines*

hais
hais
hais
hais
hais
been so tired these days, guess the workload is really catching up on me.
fell asleep during poa.
omg
i mean like, i was listening listenning.. den suddenly
*bham*
i fell on my table and slept.
woke up 5 mins b4 the lecture ended.
shagged.

diff ppl have diff passions.
one just dun suit another.

oh yea.
went for ec oral today
woo.
BEAUTY.
totally gave out a gp speech man
hahahaha.
Mass media's " beauty "
lolx
hope iv done well.

learned to let go.
whoo. back to my xiao long nu! weee=D

fking shagged

wooo.
just reach home sia
ate kfc for dinner at 8.30pm
sad la.
stupid bowling training.
wait shall nt go into the main event 1st.
yes its suprising i still have the energy to blog.
woo.
yes that can be ur last name.

i went mrt .
4got my ezlink card with my dad.
look like a total moron in front of the entrance.
keep tapping my blank wallet.
omg
den rmb i dint bring
buy standard ticket to dover
$2.70. get $1 back
$1.70
WA LAN
thats like 4X of the charge i usually pay la.
omg.
so sway.

den next
ITAB
OMG
I totally lost it.
heh. i bet u guys nv seen me lost it b4 huh?
i was totally lost.
crazy
went nuts
shout say things i dun even know
i guess my mind was too giddy and switched off. so things dun process thru my brain.
at first it was headache.. den the noise made it worse.
i lost it.
in the end.
yes.
RIshi witnessed it.
lucky him
once in a life time

lesson end
went for econs lec.
shld nt have gone
all i do = copy notes
wat the lec say dun enter my brain
its like a wall.
not a sponge
cant absorb for nuts

finally.
bowling training
some clown dowan accompany me go.
still keep pushing some1 to me ah.
sms shoot her also nv reply.
dun fren that some1 le.
humph.

DAMN Hungry la.
AND tired
and wasted
even b4 i started bowling.
DID the boring 1 Step for 1 HR
god.
damn sianed
the action started when we can resume our normal bowling
woo.
we got separated to those who know hw to bowl and dunno.
yes.
damn the coach
fk.
" you need a lot of work to do. "
" your swing etc is all wrong "
fk u la , wrong still can strike more than ur sp bowlers la.
"i wanna reprogramme ur mind "
"from next week onwards u keep doing 1/2 step for 3 mths "
wa knn
" u are nt allowed to bowl outside with ur old style. if nt u will have to take a longer time "
wa lan
CB
damnn beh song.
keep commenting on my mistakes la
" my sp bowlers are all very good , those here now are not the best "
wa fk sia , come la ask ur bowlers come qie la, dun ask the team sg guy can le.
basket. i can strike but my posture wrong doesnt mean its wrong rite.
my posture wrong but still can get 200+ u kp wat shit
damn pissed.
dunno why im damn pissed.
guess its the day today.
and iv lost it.
yes.
worse is
he took a spinner (senior ) and compare with me
look at him, last time he quite lousy, but nw hes improved alot, at least presentable.
fk la his avg nw also 150+160+ only , big ah?
his posture correct but his avg also kns.
im nt saying im dam pro la.
but pls lor.
at least can win some of ur sp bowlers la.
pui.


go do econs le .
wasted shagged mentally exhausted pissed jarick
im nt myself today.

marathon

woo
pooed 3 times
in a row.
5 mins each intervence.
1st time = normal poo
5 mins break
2nd time = abit wet poo
5 mins break
DIARREOA
man.
totally spent like 1hr of my life pooing.
stomach seems so empty now.
still churning.
bad stomach day.
=(

=(

ppl having 3 times a week training.
what i am doing?
once a week?
lolx.
wat a joke.
stoning is fun.
allows ur mind to wander.
explore the other dimensions.
your inner thoughts.
competi is only 11 days away if im intending to join
yet what am i doing.?
slacking
thinking of other things.
distractions.
can join.
and get last.
must well keep e registration fee and do sth with it.
team singapore?
team shit more likely.
i have only words.
no actions.
sry for my ramblings.
just ignore.
its a waste of time reading.
seriously.

contradicting.

still rmb wat i said during ideas presentation.
that i will nv gif up.
heh.
wheres my motivation
wheres my driving force.
wheres my determination.
wheres zeming?
has he really turned into jarick?
or is he just hiding behind that name

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
dunno wat to say.
some things just dun match,
or rather.
not want to.
bleah.
back to slp.

I am determined

i am determined.
nth can change my mind now.
gdbye.

zzz

utterly disappointed at myself.
at my own determination.
why i have such SHORT and soft one.
saddening
must keep it going
never to gif in
nevar.

looking thru my final theory test booking dates
decided to book it in 1 mth
as there is no vacant space.
so zzz
finally
15/06/2006
16:30-17:20
and the webby is so laggy.

so pissed with the web
book wrongly
zzz
make me must waste 1 cancellation.
fk
sianed.

??

no 1 would understand



still staying up.
will never drop below again






did sth damn stupid
took out my phone mmc card from my hp
slot in my com mmc/sd card slot
was wondering why the hole so big for mmc,
den use pencil and force it in somemore.
it went in so deep, the system can read the card
got the light
i was elated, tot it stuck
den transfer all my songs and files over to the card le.
den realize
oh shit
its really stuck
i 4got to put the adapter in.
lol
spent like a long time trying to dig out
in the end inserted the adapter den dig out together
cheerios!
sweating like crazy
.
hahahas
had a great laugh over it.
how stupid i am.
interesting.
heh.

almost

*almost fell in *
phew
careless me
pulled myself back up again.

for ppl who like super mario
or for ppl whos think they are damn good in piano
meet the pro.
http://www.ebaumsworld.com/mariopiano.html

went for badminton trial today, or rather. went to spec
missed the old times.
my old life.
bowling.
is not as fun as it is compared to last year.
dunno if i have the motivation to go on.
will team singapore alone be enuf?
shall c.

went for theory basic exam today
completed in 5 mins
passed
beat that =D

sianed.

omg. labtop

my dream labtop
i wanttttt
but its damn ex!!
hope i can get this
*dreams*
*drools*


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rantssssssssssssss

Tans clan outing

woot.
went out with e tans clan today.
went lunch. then movie.
1st time i walk out of a restaurant after ordering..
went into pizzahut, den we all order le, regret den wanna go eat sushi buffet.
so ps, i call e waiter here den me nic and yt put our heads on table.
leave eugene the big man to tok lol.
so paiseh.
settled for hans instead
the portion is damn small thou.
den went watch election
sneak the 2 kids nick and yt in.
yt damn lian la.
whole day hangout arcade, u shld c her ddr.
omg
cfm shes an ah lian.
den pass by tans b4 going home.
hahas
damn rain.
gonna chiong hw now.
Stats and Econs
gogo!=D

who says the sun cant rise from the north.
like tutucakes?

new phone!

ohh. went ps
queue damn long.
ps starhub really cmi
the queue waiting can seriously kill ppl
2 hrs la.
omg
lucky i have great patience :P
while waiting, went buy quiksilver belt. =D
got 10% discount
woot for the membership =D
den change my plan
and finally got my beloved
n70~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOT
that phone rox!
weeeeee

reach home
chiong pacc tut
irratating.
until 2am la.
god
save me .