reflections..

2.50am in e morning...
sitting here .. pondering..
its nv been gone..
its only getting bigger..
right here.. in the depth of my heart...
tormenting me..
silently..
the hollowness u call it..
no 1 can fill it up..
i miss all of u..
seriously
but i know its just a fascade..
i will never get all of you back
nor enjoyed like we used to.
even my closest fren..or frens.
my old life..
is but a memory..
longing..is e perfect word to describe..
the craving...but will nv be fufilled...
all now is just an illusion..
physically .. but not mentally.
live on my life..
is the only thing i could do..
a choice...
is no longer given.
everything is lost.
embed in the year 2005.