sians

sighh
there are so many things i need to do
so many things which i have to do
so many things which i tell myself to do
so many things which i must do
so many things which are critical to me,
but, somehow, somewhere , i would fail to do so.
esp at the most impt moments of my life. I failed.
Encouragement doesnt last,
maybe its just the weak determination.
or its just me.

School was sucky today.
itab = gone
hopefully no forward module for me.
i seriously need to buck up.
period.
for every subject.
exams coming
maple = STOP
mugging starts from now.
yes im going to mug.
pls god help me mug.
frickin tired.
sick of things
sick of happenings
sick of everything.
what truely interests me?
who truely interests me?
someday we'll know.
but certainly not today.

Imagine being the best 1 day
and being the worst the other.
its like a bad injury to a soccer player
since its the world cup fever now,
i shall add more heat to it.
now i understand why sportmen seriously needs lots of determination and endurance, not just physically, but mentally.
i felt that.
yes, it may improve, but certainly not yet.
scalded by flames throughout, ongoing pain.
may winter fall soon, so then the sun will curb and a balance will be created.