me against myself.
bah.
finally cleared all my ties and belts. .. =(
gonna leave sr.. real soon..
sigh.
cant believe this is happening..
gonna seriously miss every1.
=( =( =(
even the disgusting brown sr uniform.
the christmas tie..
the maths tutorial.
the bio,maths,econs,physics notes..
the tys...
everything =(
went training.
sad...
juz wanna apologize for not being able to fufill that promise.
have fun there and gd lk for both e compei and As.
hopefully we would still keep in contact and bowl together again when we are adults. till then.
whats e point of all e hard work?
the moments of pain and suffering.
just for that aim.
and now i succeeded that aim, close..
but i cant go for it.
i dammit wanna go for nationals.
*slams*
dam!
why?
why cant i stay?
why must u force me to go? why????
tell me the truth.
these are the confessions of a broken heart.
here comes e wait again.
till next month.
6 days away.
shall wait.
*feels helpless*
shall study hard and earn big bucks.
i swear i will.
i swear.
all this mental tortue.
im working hard not becos of u
but for myself.
my future.
packed my stuff today.
cleared 90% of all e jc stuff.
into a big box
sad.
my table feels so empty.
hais.
$#%#$%##@#!
@#$@$@!@#
!@#@#!@#!#@!
heh.
iv become so numb.
i cant feel u there
become so tired.
so much more awake.
iv become in this.
all i wan to do
is be more like me
& b less like u.
every step that i take is another mistake to u.
every sec i waste is more then i can take.
its nt that i choose convinence over company.
its nt that i rather go e easy way then have e company.
after so many things iv done, yet u think i prefer convinience.
u said u understand.
hopefully
doubt so.
nvm.
incomplete
=(
finally cleared all my ties and belts. .. =(
gonna leave sr.. real soon..
sigh.
cant believe this is happening..
gonna seriously miss every1.
=( =( =(
even the disgusting brown sr uniform.
the christmas tie..
the maths tutorial.
the bio,maths,econs,physics notes..
the tys...
everything =(
went training.
sad...
juz wanna apologize for not being able to fufill that promise.
have fun there and gd lk for both e compei and As.
hopefully we would still keep in contact and bowl together again when we are adults. till then.
whats e point of all e hard work?
the moments of pain and suffering.
just for that aim.
and now i succeeded that aim, close..
but i cant go for it.
i dammit wanna go for nationals.
*slams*
dam!
why?
why cant i stay?
why must u force me to go? why????
tell me the truth.
these are the confessions of a broken heart.
here comes e wait again.
till next month.
6 days away.
shall wait.
*feels helpless*
shall study hard and earn big bucks.
i swear i will.
i swear.
all this mental tortue.
im working hard not becos of u
but for myself.
my future.
packed my stuff today.
cleared 90% of all e jc stuff.
into a big box
sad.
my table feels so empty.
hais.
$#%#$%##@#!
@#$@$@!@#
!@#@#!@#!#@!
heh.
iv become so numb.
i cant feel u there
become so tired.
so much more awake.
iv become in this.
all i wan to do
is be more like me
& b less like u.
every step that i take is another mistake to u.
every sec i waste is more then i can take.
its nt that i choose convinence over company.
its nt that i rather go e easy way then have e company.
after so many things iv done, yet u think i prefer convinience.
u said u understand.
hopefully
doubt so.
nvm.
incomplete
=(
